Why me? Why me?

I spent a fair amount of time during certain parts of my life lamenting, why me? Why me? I sincerely believed I was, and had been, a good person - honest, kind, helpful, generous - and being, humbly, aware of all that I was, I couldn't understand why I wasn't being 'rewarded' by God, but instead got what I saw as punishment. If I knew then what I know now, instead of feeling like a victim, I would have stopped my suffering, moved on, and changed my life by changing my negative beliefs.

I didn't see people and circumstances in my life as mirrors, reflecting to me the negative beliefs I held in my subconscious mind - instead I got sad and depressed, obsessing over other people's so-called 'bad' behavior towards me, with me making no effort to break the cycle.

If the same situation were to happen today, I would 'thank' the messenger, instead of wanting to 'shoot' them, for reflecting to me, my interior self. Once I learnt this secret, I changed my life around completely. The paradox here is that it is so simple and yet so hard to bring yourself to this awareness.

If stuck in this place, grinding your wheels and not moving forward, first STOP all reactive behavior - then start a gratitude journal. This will give you a breather, a reprieve, and will break the cycle of negativity. After that, the choice is yours to dig deeper and work on changing the deeply held negative beliefs, through help from a therapist, or do whatever else it is you decide to do.

May a gentle sun always shine its warm, healing rays upon you...

Kiki ;-)
P.S. My request to those who 'borrow' from this blog is to please give adequate credit to the source of the borrowed information - whether me, or books and people I quote from. Thank you.